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Sunday July 7, 2025
"Time Travel"

I'm at the top of the Nevada mountains high on psychic mushrooms. Cycling through the past and into the future. 

You see, consuming psychedelics have shaped me to be the person I am today. 

Always happy. Always laughing. Always optimistic. 

And when I see a bullet traveling through space and time, I place my hand in front of it. 

There is nothing that I fear, but fear itself. 
Psychedelics allow me to see the man in the mirror. 

The Man said to me, "I am rewiring my brain. I see positive things. I manifest abundance. I manifest happiness. I manifest laughter." 

- Issac Mendoza 
High on psychic mushrooms 
6:19am

Friday July 4, 2025 9:39am
"I'm more rich than the rich" -imc

I'm currently naked on the computer, listening to Lars Peters, Ambient Volume 1 while high on psychic mushrooms and today's literature goes something like this... 

"I hear the sound of the breeze.
My life is finally at ease.
It's easy to see."

I trained for more than an hour this morning while high on psychic mushrooms. 

As I trained, I trained my mind. I spent 8 months of my life living with a roommate who believes in Satanism. It really affected my state of mind. These last four days, I spent it reprogramming my mind. 

After training, I made it home and planted the seed within myself. As I see myself, I see how happy I'am. I see how far I've come. Satan tried to take me down, but God gave me the power to take him down.

Before I showered, I took my third dose of psychic mushrooms for the day.

As I showered, I cleansed my tub and cleansed my soul. As I showered, I held the cleaning bowl high above me when I felt God's galore. As I showered, the water became the holy spirit. As I showered, I felt the holy spirit. As I showered, the holy spirit cleansed my body and my soul.

As I showered, I held myself and cleansed myself, when I said:

" I' am strong. I' am beautiful. I' am holy. I' am pure. I have it all plus more."

I then remembered a post that read, " If you're not rich, how do you look on the bright side?"

When it came it me.

"I' am rich. I have a place to call home. I have food to eat. I have a loving family and loving friends. I have a car and I have a job."

I may not be "rich" but I'm more rich than the rich and that to me, is being rich. 

- Issac Mendoza
High on psychic mushrooms
10:06am




Thursday July 3, 2025 8:06am
"The Man on the Mirror" -imc

I'm currently naked listening to, Dance Of The Hunter's Fire by Mickey Heart while high on psychic mushrooms.

I spent my entire morning cleansing my home and cleansing my soul.

Since November 2024 my home was like a seesaw, it was off balance. 

But today I repaired the equilibrium. I repaired my home; both internally and externally.

As I shaved my face, I saw myself in the mirror when I started to have a conversation within myself. Thats when I knew, the psychic mushrooms kicked in.

As I shaved my face, I had a conversation with the man on the mirror.

As I shaved my face, I saw the man on the mirror when he said to me:

"You are strong. You are beautiful. You are loving. You are honest. You are loyal. You are well off. You are happy. You are beautiful and you have it all."

As I shaved my face, I looked down at myself as I heard the man on the mirror speak to me. 

When I looked in the mirror, I saw the man on the mirror.

The man on the mirror, looked at himself when he started to cry and said to himself, "thank you God."

-Issac Mendoza
High on mushrooms
8:32am









Sunday Jun 29, 2025 6:45pm
"Satan masked himself as an angel" -imc

This quote is based on a true story, a story that was inspired by today's mass.

Satan has been living in my home since November 2024. Prior to this, I knew of Satan for a few years. Satan always painted himself to be this holy person. I believed in Satan's good faith and allowed him to enter my home.

In December 2024 I had a deep conversation with Satan and questioned his good faith. I said to Satan, "dude, if I knew you lived this lifestyle I would have never allowed you into my home. You get plastered every day, you do a lot of coke, and when you enter my home, you bring a lot of dark heavy energies."

Satan stayed quiet and said, "you see, last night I got so high and plastered, I lost my wallet and one thousand dollars. I'm going to get sober. I want to do good."

I said to Satan, "good, maybe this was meant to happen to you so you can learn a lesson. This is teaching you something."

Satan gambled with life and was gifted twelve thousand dollars. Satan became greedy and I said to him, "Satan, instead of buying things you don't need, do good for yourself. Buy yourself a car so you don't struggle. The remainder of the money you can use for car registration, insurance, and for savings."

Satan, was caught of guard. Within a few days, he bought himself a pair of wings and now he was able to fly. 

On December 31, 2024 NYE I said to Satan, "dude, you're doing good for yourself. You no longer bring heavy energies into my home. You stopped drinking. You stopped doing coke, and now you have a pair of wings and you can fly. Good for you Satan, your doing good for yourself. Keep-up the good work."

Satan, was caught of guard and said, "thank you" and went to his room.

A.C. 2025
The Upsidedown Crucifix

On January 2025 I said to Satan, "dude, I had my second encounter with God! I saw him as I looked into the clouds. The clouds started to take shape as God! As God came down on me, I held onto his back for dear life!"

Satan said, "You know, I don't believe in God. My family used religion against me as to why I don't believe in him. I have the upside down crucifix hanging in my room".

I looked at Satan in disbelief. 

End of January 2025 I said to Satan, "Satan, I had my third encounter with God! But this time, I felt God! God came down on me and grabbed me by the hand. I cried in disbelif as we held onto each other!"

Satan said, "I don't believe in God. I have the upside down crucifix in my room."

I looked at Satan in disbelief and said, "well, I would rather believe in something holy than believe in something demonic."

Satan stayed quiet and went to his room.

On April 2025, I said to Satan, "dude, you're bringing dark heavy energies into my home. Its really bothersome. I don't know what you're going through or what's going on in your personal life, but you leave lingering energies around. It's really annoying. You're irresposible, you always have an excuse for everything. It's hard for you to pay rent and you make more money than me; you're always broke! Your messy, your lazy, and your unmotivated. I allowed you into my home because you painted yourself to be this beautiful angel! But you're not who you say you are! If I would have known  who you really are, I would have never asked you to enter my home. My home is holy. I believe in God and the lord savior Jesus Christ, and here you are, entering my home with an upside down crucifix in your room."

Satan wanted to cry. He stayed quiet and went to his room.

Easter Monday 2025, I said to Satan, "Satan, I need to speak to you. I'am giving you a two month nothice. Your last day will be Monday June 30th, 2025."

Satan was in shock. He said, "well why?" 

I said to Satan, "for doing bad deeds! Satan, you masked yourself to be this beautiful angel, but you're far from it! I reliquish you from heaven and I clip away your wings! I relinquish you, by the power of God; I cast into hell Satan, amen."

Satan became irreverent toward the holy environment he found himself in and became violent in thought, if not in deed.

"Satan Masked Himself As An Angel", by Issac Mendoza is based on a true story. 
This creative writing came to me as I sat front row at the 5pm mass today Sunday June 29, 2025.

-Issac Mendoza
9:13pm

Friday June 27, 2025 8:37am
"The best workout is the one within yourself" -imc


This quote was inspired as I cycled 16 miles across Las Vegas, Nevada and started reflecting on the one thing I had to let go.

I cried as I cycled. 

Life was coming to me. Life was after me.

When I made it home, I spoke with Winsconsin. It was time to let go.

I let go of the person that was holding me back. I put life into perspective, there was no going back. 

Consuming psychic mushrooms in the last 24 hours have allowed me to see deep within myself. They have allowed me to put life into perspective. They have allowed me to heal and let go. 

- Issac Mendoza
8:47am

Thursday June 26, 2025 6:30am
"The psychic mushrooms, were speaking to me." -imc


I made my way to Calico Basin in Las Vegas, Nevada where I endured a psychedelic journey of enlightenment.

As I hiked bare, I was deep in my personal thoughts. 

As I continued to hike bare, these thoughts were now lingering the way a fly lingers around you.

As I continued to hike bare, I stopped myself and said outloud:

"I let go! I let go of 'Bey' for questioning me. I let go of 'Maria' for always being nasty to me, I let go of 'Winsconsin' for being an alcoholic, and I let go of 'Satan' (roommate), for always bringing darkness into my home."

The psychic mushrooms, were speaking to me.

I sat at the top of the rock in complete darkness like the darkness that sat in me.

I sat bare, at the top of the rock as I recorded myself and reflected on the underlying issues within me.

As I recorded myself, I let go. 

As I let go, the sun started to rise.

My face turned a bright orange- yellow.

I was no longer dark. I was now light. 

When I made it home, I spoke to Winsconsin and brought up my concerns. When I saw Maria, I was able to let go. When I spoke with Satan, I was able to let go. As for Bey, I am yet to see him. 

One thing I realized from this psychedelic journey of enlightenment was letting go of the things that were holding me back.

I learned to let go of the lingering thoughts that lingered inside, like the way a fly lingers. 

-Issac Mendoza
6.27.2025 8:37am

Monday June 16, 2025 
"The Acid Healded The Wound I Never Knew I had" -imc

I sat on the kitchen table on the wee hours of the morning. It was me and 5 empty chairs occupied by the darkness around me. 

I sat on the kitchen table with unwanted guest. I sat on the kitchen table with darkness all around. Darkness sat with me for about two hours.

I grabbed the lighter and burned the sage. I cleansed myself and I cleansed my home. As I burned the sage, I told my guest to go home. 

I sat on the sofa until 2pm. When I heard Satan walking out of his room. I heard Satan as the stairs creeked with every step that he took. 

Satan was passing by me as he passed through the door. Thats when I knew, Satan brought these unwanted guests to my door. 

At 2pm I took my second microdose of acid. By 6pm I took my second microdose of acid for the day. 

I laid in bed scrolling on my iPad. By 7pm, I felt my right hand become light. By 7pm, I felt my left hand become light. By 7pm, I was light as a feather. 

I laid in bed as I felt my body lighter than air. I laid in bed as I caressed myself in mid air. 

I was one, with the air. 

I laid in bed and closed my eyes.

I saw myself in a bright green meadow. I saw myself holding a bouquet of roses. As I held the bouquet, I spun in circles. I spun and I spun. As I spun, I held the bouquet, as I felt and saw myself be happy. 

I saw the passing of my aunts and my uncle. I saw my aunt Julia collapse to her death as she sang karaoke with her family around. I saw my aunt Concha collapse to her death as I saw her collapse at the top of her own stairs. I saw my uncle Gene collapse to his death as he collapsed to his own death in his own home.

I saw the passing of my aunts and my uncle; when I raised both hands in mid air and prayed outloud, " I pray for my aunts and uncle so they can continue through their afterlife."

When I was done praying, I laid in bed with eyes closed.

I saw myself and I saw God. God had taken me by the hand. I felt his ora and his presence. God held me by the hand and gave me infinate life. 

I had longevity. 

I saw the acid and felt the acid. I saw the acid deep in my brain as it rewired me. I saw and felt the acid fixing my brain. It's as if I was broken and the acid was fixing me. 

Looking back at this moment in time made me realize how happy I am with life. I may not be rich, but Im rich in happiness.

Though I was never there, the acid made me see these beautiful passings.


The acid also showed me the after life. It showed me heaven. It showed me where I will be when I collapse to my death. 

I will be in heaven where I will continue my life, in the afterlife. 

As for the rewiring of the brain, well, the answer is simple.

The acid rewired my brain. It fixed me.

The acid healed the wound I never knew I had.

- Issac Mendoza 
6.27.2025 10:41am

Tripping on Acid 6.16.2025 Video

Wednesday May 7, 2025 7pm
" I have it all" - imc

Consuming psychedelics, have exposed me to an unknown world. A world, in which I currently live in. 

Through psychedelics, I found Bjork. 

On this day, I saw Bjork Live in Theaters while high on acid.

On this day, I took my first microdose of acid. 

During the show, I was deep in my own personal thoughts. I sat, watching, my own show.

When I made it home, my own art started tripping me. That's when I knew I did a good job. 

When I saw the stairs, I saw an infinate climb.

I climbed to the top of the stairs. When I felt dark heavy energies coming out of Satan's room (roommate). I stood at the top of the stairs as I felt Satans darkness behind closed doors.

When I made it to my room, I saw God high above my wall. I got on my knees and prayed, "dear God, thank you for giving me food to eat. Thank you for giving me a place to call home. Thank you for giving me my bed and for giving me my car. Thank you for my job, for my family and for my friends. Thank you for all the beautiful things you have given me, amen."

After prayer, I got naked and took a shower. 

As I showered, I felt the water. As I showered, I felt the water purify me. As I showered, I felt the water cleanse me. As I showered, my hands caressed my body. My hands were removing the dark negative energies that have been around me. As I showered, my hands caressed my body as they continued to remove the darkness that surrounded me. 

As I showered, I cleansed myself when my hands caressed my penis. As I cleansed myself, I held my penis with both hands. As I cleansed myself, I touched myself. As I touched myself, I said outloud:

"I am beautfiul and I love myself. "

As I loved myself, I started to cry. As I cried, I cleansed myself.

I became one with the water.

When I was done cleansing, I dried myself and laid on the corner of my bed.

I started reflecting.

I cried as I started reflecting:

" I have it all. I have a place to call home. I have food to eat. I have a job. I have a bed. I have a pillow and a blanket. I have clothes. I have carpet. I hace ac. I have a loving family and loving friends. As long as I have food to eat, that to me is having it all."

Looking back at this beautiful moment in time, I realized a few things.

Number one, the acid mad me feel and see the dark heavy energy Satan has brought into my home. I believe in God and have God high above my wall. While Satan, has an upside-down crucifix in his room. If there is good, there is bad. 

Number two, the acid made feel the dark heavy energies that were on me. These negative energies were on me because of Satan and the people around me. 

Number three, the acid cleansed me from the darkness. The water purified me.

Number four, the acid helped me realize how beautiful I am. It made me realize how beautiful my body is. It made me realize how beautiful I am both inside and out. The acid, made me realize how fortunate I am to have this beautiful body I call home. 

Lastly, the acid made me find the meaning of what "having it all" means to me. It made me be grateful for all the beautiful things I have. It made me realize how good I have it. 

We get so caught up with wanting everything. We want the best car, the best house, the best clothes. We get so caught up with all the greedy things in life and acid, made me see life.

"As long as I have food to eat, that to me, is having it all."

This psychedelic journey of enlightenment also inspired my new book. An in depth book of what "having it all" means to me and the inspiration behind it.

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A Psychedelic Journey of Enlightenment
"I have it all"
by Issac Mendoza

Coming soon. 

- Issac Mendoza
6.27.2025 10:03am

Tripping on Acid 5.7.2025 Video